A Year Older

A year older does not always translate to a year wiser. To be wiser, we must learn and when we learn, we change. How much you want to change with the knowledge gained with age is driven by the amount of motivation for your desire. You must want it as much as a caterpillar want to fly. 

As 2012 starts, there are many things that I want. All I need now is to know why I want it so much and if I am willing to endure the transformation to be able to fly.

Gazelles and Lions in Africa

Hello bloggie (sounds like a sink waiting to be drained),

I am back from another semester caught between the joy of everyday living and the sad realities that us humans have grown accustomed to. I have started reading again, the last book I've read was "The Lake of Dreams " by Kim Edwards. It was not as good as her previous work but Lucy Jarrett, the protagonist, reminded me too much of myself. I think it was her desire and reluctance for change that gave me the thought.

It seems to me that although I have a never ending desire for new and curious surroundings, I have a tight grip on how I want certain things to remain the same. When nostalgia hits me, it punches me in the face from the fist of Muhammad Ali. While reading the novel, I felt myself tear a few times not from the storyline but from mental imagery that I've formed from descriptors in the book. The movement of water, the appearance of the white deers and the Japanese cranes all created beautiful images in my head and left me thinking. I know I will keep running but should I pause and look back every once in a while? Will it fill me with regret or would it be my motivation to keep running?

Supermassive Black Hole

Exams are coming! My family is coming! My revision is not going anywhere. Lol!

There is no doubt that I have a problem. It feels like deja vu, time after time, the same situation, I am such a b*tch and I have to admit it. I have to change but I can't. Maybe it's my personality and it's ugly. Arghhh. I want to find a cave and hide inside until holiday arrives. But then again, maybe until the end of the holidays. I want people to forget that I exist. Don't come and look for me, I don't want to be found. Let me rot alone, I will return to civilisation when I am ready to face the world.

I am a bad person and as much as I want to change, I cannot. Karma is going to hit me hard and I deserve it.

this is CRYSTAL!!!!!

My patience is running low these days. Please don't make me rip your head off. I am polite, most of the time.

Things that you can try if you are dying to see me really upset and scream with a really high pitch voice

• Don't reply my messages
• Don't pick up my calls
• Take 5 minutes to prepare my sub
• Talk really loud behind me during lecture
• Make me wait in line for more than 10 minutes because you cannot freaking press the buttons on the cash machine fast enough
• Ignore me, yeah, I am sensitive like that
• Don't give me food and coffee
• Scream at me
• Cut my queue, this one I die die cannot stand
• Cut me off from the Internet, this is the ultimate move, I will Sparta you!

Drabbles

I really don't know. I think I have early life crisis as compared to mid life crisis.
Once again I am faced with the realization that I don't know what to do with my life. Everytime this happens, I always wake up from my daze an inch closer to completely mapping my life out.
I hope that this will be the last time and I'll finally be able to figure it out.

That aside, I recently read a book ...its been a while since I've read a book for pleasure... about the swan king. King Ludwig II of Bavaria. He built the castle that inspired Walt Disney's Sleeping Beauty castle. Should I tell you about the content of the book? Hmmmm, nope. You should go pick it up and read it for yourself. If you don't like reading, go wiki him.

P/S- I want good korean/jap food real bad.